Sitting out on my balcony this lovely Thursday afternoon, I can breathe a sigh of relief. Im just about halfway done with my semester. I expected this week to be a bit of a calm in the storm that has been my academic semester so far. No such luck. Im beginning to lose hope that I will have a relaxing week, where I maybe spend 1 or 2 hours on homework each afternoon, rather than 7 or 10. So, I embark on more homework and pray that summer comes fairly soon. I had planned for this semester to be jam packed of school work, and I got myself prepared to throw everything I have into finishing strong (like I did last semester). Im not losing that dream. I want to finish strong - which is why I throw everything I have into my books. How many people can say my Vertebrate Physiology book is one of my best friends? I can. I believe I have entered Loner Land. Im basically constituted as a book worm. Id rather be a worm than a rat though... although, I have 2 labs - making me a bit of a lab rat... great.
Well. This week: I completed a two-part test. A very difficult lab report. A midterm. A massive chart for my midterm. It may not sound like a whole lot, but literally these things have been taking me hours each day to complete. And I know I need to go inside and pick up my book and keep reading. I know I need to answer a few questions for chemistry. I need to study for a chemistry quiz I have every Friday. I need to study for an exercise physiology quiz. And copy those notes. Nope. It never ends. And tomorrow will be a full day, as well. Hopefully, with fun aspects. I guess theres not a whole lot to write. I am just so done with school, homework, studying, CBU, Riverside, here here here. Im ready to be in my glorious bed in my wonderful home in El Cajon, watching a movie. Ive hit the "Im done" point. I hit it every year. Honestly, every year since I was young, I get to a point where Id just about rather be poor, living in a cave the rest of my life than to keep going to school and doing all it entails every day. Im not trying to complain. Im thankful. Just trying to keep reminding myself of how blessed I am.
Well. Last night I saw the clock turn 2. In the morning. I dont advise this. I can tell you right now - its not exciting - go to bed. I dont think Ill be doing that again... not that I was desiring to in the first place....
A little lesson Ill leave you with. This afternoon, while sitting on my balcony, I watched a soccer game. Always look ahead - look where youre going. A guy ran into the flag at the corner. He continued to chase after the ball as if it hadnt happened.... And Ive totally done that. But we can apply this to life. Basically, always look where youre going. You may not know where youre headed, but youll at least know when youre about to hit a tree or something, so you can dodge it. I feel like I need to do that a little more - cuz Ive been running into things a lot... Anyways. Sorry this was so random... Hope you got the lesson though! =)
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Sunday, February 14, 2010
A Disney Tribute
You would think I would write about Valentines Day... Or as every person without a significant other calls it: Single Awareness Day. And dont get me wrong, my day today was not bad at all! But the important day to mention of this weekend was yesterday.
Saturday, I embarked on a Disney adventure with my good friend, Jacob. I have been excited to go to Disneyland for weeks. And when we made plans to go last week, my excitement soared even higher. To begin my blog, I want to point out, that this weekend was a 3-day weekend - for SOME people. Presidents Day is tomorrow and, obviously, Valentines Day is today. (Not that I ever got school off for Valentines Day...) We realized we were crazy for going this Saturday as we got closer to a crowd infested Disneyland, but we figured it would all be part of the adventure.
We parked and headed to the park(s). (Haha!!) Starting our day at Disneyland, we first made our way to Space Mountain, after a pit stop at the bathroom. Coming out, I find Jacob surrounded by... tourists... at that point I definitely knew this was going to be an interesting day. Crowds. Tourists. Strollers. Children. Four of my all-time favorite things. I wont walk you through every little thing we did, cuz that would take a while (and Ive received complaints on my post lengths). But I wanted to share some interesting things I learned... and things that I feel even stronger about.
#1: I could never be a character at Disneyland. Too much smiling. Too much happy. Too many kids. To overwhelming. One dream... shot by reality.
#2: I took a "test" telling me what Disney character I am most like. You may think I am like Cinderella in my breath-taking beauty, Pocohontas in my free spirit and stubborn nature, or even Snow White in my inability to turn down a delicious apple... but my character will shock you. Or maybe it wont - if it doesnt, please keep it to yourself. I am most like.......... the wicked queen in Snow White.... I felt this also reinforced that I shouldnt be a princess (or any character) at Disneyland... (However, I did felt a little better knowing Jacob is most like the candlestick in Beauty and the Beast.)
#3: Little girls should not have Minnie ears with veils on them. Those are for brides. I dont think a 4 or 5 year old was just married. Parents - you are hurrying the growing up process, in case you didnt know... I feel like I should have gotten one of those - seeing as Jacob and I were unexpectedly married on the Monsters Inc ride, with a family of four to witness.
#4: I need a lot of practice in Toy Story and Buzz Lightyear... games where you shoot either random objects to hits things or lazers at targets. It was a true tragedy to be responsible for such low points at these games. And even when the ride stopped in the middle of Buzz Lightyear and I had a target to constantly shoot literally right next to me, I still lost in the end. Shame.
#5: I have always been a "free the leashed child" type of girl. I want to carry scissors, just to cut kids loose. When Jacob asked my opinion of these leashed children, I openly and honestly shared my feelings on it. He agreed. Another reason why we get along so well. At the end of the day, we were walking out of Disneyland following a couple with their child... who was on a leash. She was constantly running and was even pulled back several times by her father, who controlled her movements. Jacob, unbeknownst to them, took pictures. (Upon telling my parents this story, believing they would feel for the child, my mom shocked me with her comment of, "Thats probably why she was on the leash... she runs everywhere!")
#6: Rainforest Cafe is an awesome restaurant. And Disneyland is definitely one of the happiest places on earth. (My home is still number one on my list, though.)
I would be down to spend a day at Disneyland any day! I had a ton of fun! It was a well-needed break from homework, school, and Riverside. A huge thank you to my amazing friend for accompanying me in this Disneyland journey! And thank you for a delicious dinner!!! And thank you for letting me distract you from homework!
Everyone needs a little Disney in their life. Even the man who got kicked out of Knotts Berry Farm... for reasons I could not understand....
Saturday, I embarked on a Disney adventure with my good friend, Jacob. I have been excited to go to Disneyland for weeks. And when we made plans to go last week, my excitement soared even higher. To begin my blog, I want to point out, that this weekend was a 3-day weekend - for SOME people. Presidents Day is tomorrow and, obviously, Valentines Day is today. (Not that I ever got school off for Valentines Day...) We realized we were crazy for going this Saturday as we got closer to a crowd infested Disneyland, but we figured it would all be part of the adventure.
We parked and headed to the park(s). (Haha!!) Starting our day at Disneyland, we first made our way to Space Mountain, after a pit stop at the bathroom. Coming out, I find Jacob surrounded by... tourists... at that point I definitely knew this was going to be an interesting day. Crowds. Tourists. Strollers. Children. Four of my all-time favorite things. I wont walk you through every little thing we did, cuz that would take a while (and Ive received complaints on my post lengths). But I wanted to share some interesting things I learned... and things that I feel even stronger about.
#1: I could never be a character at Disneyland. Too much smiling. Too much happy. Too many kids. To overwhelming. One dream... shot by reality.
#2: I took a "test" telling me what Disney character I am most like. You may think I am like Cinderella in my breath-taking beauty, Pocohontas in my free spirit and stubborn nature, or even Snow White in my inability to turn down a delicious apple... but my character will shock you. Or maybe it wont - if it doesnt, please keep it to yourself. I am most like.......... the wicked queen in Snow White.... I felt this also reinforced that I shouldnt be a princess (or any character) at Disneyland... (However, I did felt a little better knowing Jacob is most like the candlestick in Beauty and the Beast.)
#3: Little girls should not have Minnie ears with veils on them. Those are for brides. I dont think a 4 or 5 year old was just married. Parents - you are hurrying the growing up process, in case you didnt know... I feel like I should have gotten one of those - seeing as Jacob and I were unexpectedly married on the Monsters Inc ride, with a family of four to witness.
#4: I need a lot of practice in Toy Story and Buzz Lightyear... games where you shoot either random objects to hits things or lazers at targets. It was a true tragedy to be responsible for such low points at these games. And even when the ride stopped in the middle of Buzz Lightyear and I had a target to constantly shoot literally right next to me, I still lost in the end. Shame.
#5: I have always been a "free the leashed child" type of girl. I want to carry scissors, just to cut kids loose. When Jacob asked my opinion of these leashed children, I openly and honestly shared my feelings on it. He agreed. Another reason why we get along so well. At the end of the day, we were walking out of Disneyland following a couple with their child... who was on a leash. She was constantly running and was even pulled back several times by her father, who controlled her movements. Jacob, unbeknownst to them, took pictures. (Upon telling my parents this story, believing they would feel for the child, my mom shocked me with her comment of, "Thats probably why she was on the leash... she runs everywhere!")
#6: Rainforest Cafe is an awesome restaurant. And Disneyland is definitely one of the happiest places on earth. (My home is still number one on my list, though.)
I would be down to spend a day at Disneyland any day! I had a ton of fun! It was a well-needed break from homework, school, and Riverside. A huge thank you to my amazing friend for accompanying me in this Disneyland journey! And thank you for a delicious dinner!!! And thank you for letting me distract you from homework!
Everyone needs a little Disney in their life. Even the man who got kicked out of Knotts Berry Farm... for reasons I could not understand....
Friday, February 12, 2010
A Lesson of a Window
I have been urged to share this story with the world. Well, with my blog peeps, at least. Though it is a rather tragic story, it has a very important moral. Try to follow along and see if you can catch the lesson I learned.
Several Saturdays ago, I was preparing to go on an adventure with my roommate. The first thing to do when preparing for my day, most days, is to take a shower. Understand, I am not a hustle-body. I take my time. Also understand, I am not modest. I played waterpolo. I know I am not the most attractive Victoria Secret model out there, but I just dont really care, I suppose. So I showered, came out into the living room in my towel, and wondered what the weather would be like. As every girl knows, you have to know the weather when deciding what you will wear. Seeing me nearly naked is no new occurrence for my roommate, though I still receive a laugh because I am the first person she has met who does such a thing. To answer my question of weather, I decided to go outside on my balcony to feel the air. I have a balcony looking out onto the massive front lawn of my school. However, thinking I would be walking out to am empty field, I threw the blind back and prepared to take a step into the outside world.
I stopped, my hand on the lock. Well wouldnt you know it. A game of ultimate frisbee was occurring right outside my window. It would be my luck that this was happening. But I stopped myself before going outside. Now, being under the impression that those who are outside cannot see inside, I decided to stay and watch the game for a short bit. (I have been told you cannot see inside our apartment if you are standing on the field.) And so, I was comfortable in my towel, watching the game be played.
I needed to move on, though, and went to embark on the first steps of dressing: undergarments. I came back out of my room, poured myself a cup of coffee, and returned to my position in front of the sliding glass door to observe more of the game. Sipping my coffee, wearing minimal clothing, wide open blinds... just to give you a faint picture. I would go do something else to prepare myself for the day, then go back to the game. Several times.
My next dressing motions involved pulling some jeans on. I, then, blow-dried my hair. I picked up my cup of coffee and again returned to watching the game. Lets review. I have on a bra and jeans at this point. Moving on.
I finally chose which shirt would be covering my torso for the day and completed my dressing routine. I finished my coffee and prepped my toothbrush for some good, old-fashioned teeth cleaning. I went back to the window to watch the game while I brushed. Several hundred yards out on the field, I saw a friend walking towards me. Several hundred yards out. Thinking nothing of it, I continued to brush. I then noticed his hand lift up in the air and make a waving motion. At me. Another friend, walking near him, looked up to see who he was waving at. Saw me, and also waved. I smiled through my frothed mouth (not that they could see that), waved back, opened the door, and went out onto the balcony.
After several more seconds of brushing my teeth, something struck me.
Do you know the lesson yet?
I turned around and headed back inside, laughing. Calling to my roommate, I told her I was just waved at... while the door was closed. Her eyes widened. Yes. She got it quicker than I did. She laughed too. Then said, "Well we all know why theyll be back next Saturday!"
Talking to a friend via online later that evening, I told him the story. He responded with, "Well it sounds like you had quite the audience!" Upon telling my roommate that, she added, "Yep. And I bet theyre looking for an encore."
Well needless to say. Those people came back the following Saturday for another game. And the next. And the next. But its a scheduled game! Haha! You thought they were lining up didnt you?
Moral of the story: It doesnt matter if someone tells you they cant see inside your window. A window is not a door. A window is see through. People can see through it. If you are modest - dont be changin in front of a window. If youre like me... you have to learn that for yourself.
Several Saturdays ago, I was preparing to go on an adventure with my roommate. The first thing to do when preparing for my day, most days, is to take a shower. Understand, I am not a hustle-body. I take my time. Also understand, I am not modest. I played waterpolo. I know I am not the most attractive Victoria Secret model out there, but I just dont really care, I suppose. So I showered, came out into the living room in my towel, and wondered what the weather would be like. As every girl knows, you have to know the weather when deciding what you will wear. Seeing me nearly naked is no new occurrence for my roommate, though I still receive a laugh because I am the first person she has met who does such a thing. To answer my question of weather, I decided to go outside on my balcony to feel the air. I have a balcony looking out onto the massive front lawn of my school. However, thinking I would be walking out to am empty field, I threw the blind back and prepared to take a step into the outside world.
I stopped, my hand on the lock. Well wouldnt you know it. A game of ultimate frisbee was occurring right outside my window. It would be my luck that this was happening. But I stopped myself before going outside. Now, being under the impression that those who are outside cannot see inside, I decided to stay and watch the game for a short bit. (I have been told you cannot see inside our apartment if you are standing on the field.) And so, I was comfortable in my towel, watching the game be played.
I needed to move on, though, and went to embark on the first steps of dressing: undergarments. I came back out of my room, poured myself a cup of coffee, and returned to my position in front of the sliding glass door to observe more of the game. Sipping my coffee, wearing minimal clothing, wide open blinds... just to give you a faint picture. I would go do something else to prepare myself for the day, then go back to the game. Several times.
My next dressing motions involved pulling some jeans on. I, then, blow-dried my hair. I picked up my cup of coffee and again returned to watching the game. Lets review. I have on a bra and jeans at this point. Moving on.
I finally chose which shirt would be covering my torso for the day and completed my dressing routine. I finished my coffee and prepped my toothbrush for some good, old-fashioned teeth cleaning. I went back to the window to watch the game while I brushed. Several hundred yards out on the field, I saw a friend walking towards me. Several hundred yards out. Thinking nothing of it, I continued to brush. I then noticed his hand lift up in the air and make a waving motion. At me. Another friend, walking near him, looked up to see who he was waving at. Saw me, and also waved. I smiled through my frothed mouth (not that they could see that), waved back, opened the door, and went out onto the balcony.
After several more seconds of brushing my teeth, something struck me.
Do you know the lesson yet?
I turned around and headed back inside, laughing. Calling to my roommate, I told her I was just waved at... while the door was closed. Her eyes widened. Yes. She got it quicker than I did. She laughed too. Then said, "Well we all know why theyll be back next Saturday!"
Talking to a friend via online later that evening, I told him the story. He responded with, "Well it sounds like you had quite the audience!" Upon telling my roommate that, she added, "Yep. And I bet theyre looking for an encore."
Well needless to say. Those people came back the following Saturday for another game. And the next. And the next. But its a scheduled game! Haha! You thought they were lining up didnt you?
Moral of the story: It doesnt matter if someone tells you they cant see inside your window. A window is not a door. A window is see through. People can see through it. If you are modest - dont be changin in front of a window. If youre like me... you have to learn that for yourself.
Saturday, January 30, 2010
Little things....
The past few days have proved to be interesting ones....
For starters, the past few days, I have been... ill... But do not fret, I have recovered and am now functioning very well!!! I want you to know how amazing the human body is. If one thing is not functioning correctly, everything will get out of whack. Also, if you have a serious problem, it can cause some serious pain and throw off everything else. Whew. I have never been so thankful for the way the human body operates. God, very evidently, knew what he was doing when he created us.
For second, I have been in the process of applying to be a Resident Assistant. This has always appealed to me, and now I am finally doing it. Applications were due this week and this was the first week of activities (breaking the ice type stuff, not mention a good hearty, "let me analyze your behavior to see how you are as an individual and how youll be as an ra"). It was awesome. Truly, the activities ended up being fun! I enjoyed them and enjoyed the people I met. I made some new friends! Thats always a good thing right?!
For third, all week long, I have been barcaded in my apartment, studying for two tests on Friday. I have flashcards coming out of my eyes. By the grace of our incredible God, my Vertebrate Physiology test has been postponed to this coming Wednesday. Meaning, I will once again be a mole, buried in my books for the first part of this coming week. For my Chemistry test on Friday, several of us in my class met for a study group. Believe it or not, Im confused with what the difference is between a pi bond and a sigma bond. I dont know the molecular geometry of SF4. Needless to say, Ive been lost. But I think I began to get it a little. Hallelujah for a prodigy in the group. Though the test looked like nothing the practice test looked like, I feel like it could have gone worse. If you know me, you know that this is actually a great statement for me to make. Anyways. On to studying for the next test.
For fourth, a statement of pure ignorance has been made in my life. I feel so blessed by the people around me, that we understand each other in our frustration. Its amazing to see how people can come together to support each other when they need support and encouragement. I love love love every person in my life. God knew what He was doing when He placed me in these families, in these friendships, in this place... And ya know, its amazing to see how peoples true colors come out... Ignorance is bliss. Who in the heck said that??? Maybe its blissful for the ignorant one.. they dont even realize whats going on! However, its not blissful for the people around the ignorant one! The people who have to deal with the statements... now thats patience is a virtue... Those people deserve a standing ovation. *clap clap clap* If you are laughing, actually think about this for a second. The person who made the ignorance is bliss comment was obviously too ignorant to realize what that entailed. Thanks for trying to contribute to society though dude! Let me try! ....dang it! I gotta give that guy more props... its hard to think of something that doesnt make sense off the top of my head!
For fifth, I was able to hang out with some pretty amazing people. I went on two different shopping expeditions with a friend. A friend who is truly unique and beautiful. I love her so so much. (And shes making me a dress! Totally random, but I am way way more than excited!) I got to go "do homework" and have coffee with my roommate. I got a fabulous cup of coffee and had a wonderful conversation. I love my roommate. And I love that we understand each other.... And gotta love those awkward situations with random people where the whole "understanding each other" really comes out.... Hopefully, the girl who a random guy was yelling about on the phone isnt really possessed. Nevertheless, all of Coffee Depot knows there is a girl in trouble who needs 1. prayer 2. a Bible and 3. authorities to get involved. Thank you stranger, for informing us about your and others personal lives. I got the opportunity to reconnect with several different friends - which I always love doing.
For sixth, I got to sleep in today! Well, till 930. Darn daylight. Totally makes me want to have a house like the one in The Holiday, where the huge sun-blockers come down to make the room pitch black. Those are an amazing invention. I feel like I would sleep so much better and be happier in the morning when I have to wake up! I could decide to leave the sun out for a bit longer, or invite it in to help me prepare for my day. Ah fabulous. Then I got to relax for a while! Given I should have been doing homework, but I felt like I could take part of a day off.
Well. I believe that is all. I had a good week. And to you, it may seem rather uneventful and mundane, but to me, I need to be thankful for the little things. Those are what get me through the day. Each of the things listed above may have had a bummer incidence in it, but ended up ok. Or funny. Whatever. I could deal with the ending, basically. Well. It is time for bed. Bible study and bed. Haha! Its B&B time! Can I just point out, how fabulous is a bed? Who created these things? (Im not even a history buff, and yet I just want to know several origins for this note!) Anyways. Until next month! Or whenever I decide to write again!...
For starters, the past few days, I have been... ill... But do not fret, I have recovered and am now functioning very well!!! I want you to know how amazing the human body is. If one thing is not functioning correctly, everything will get out of whack. Also, if you have a serious problem, it can cause some serious pain and throw off everything else. Whew. I have never been so thankful for the way the human body operates. God, very evidently, knew what he was doing when he created us.
For second, I have been in the process of applying to be a Resident Assistant. This has always appealed to me, and now I am finally doing it. Applications were due this week and this was the first week of activities (breaking the ice type stuff, not mention a good hearty, "let me analyze your behavior to see how you are as an individual and how youll be as an ra"). It was awesome. Truly, the activities ended up being fun! I enjoyed them and enjoyed the people I met. I made some new friends! Thats always a good thing right?!
For third, all week long, I have been barcaded in my apartment, studying for two tests on Friday. I have flashcards coming out of my eyes. By the grace of our incredible God, my Vertebrate Physiology test has been postponed to this coming Wednesday. Meaning, I will once again be a mole, buried in my books for the first part of this coming week. For my Chemistry test on Friday, several of us in my class met for a study group. Believe it or not, Im confused with what the difference is between a pi bond and a sigma bond. I dont know the molecular geometry of SF4. Needless to say, Ive been lost. But I think I began to get it a little. Hallelujah for a prodigy in the group. Though the test looked like nothing the practice test looked like, I feel like it could have gone worse. If you know me, you know that this is actually a great statement for me to make. Anyways. On to studying for the next test.
For fourth, a statement of pure ignorance has been made in my life. I feel so blessed by the people around me, that we understand each other in our frustration. Its amazing to see how people can come together to support each other when they need support and encouragement. I love love love every person in my life. God knew what He was doing when He placed me in these families, in these friendships, in this place... And ya know, its amazing to see how peoples true colors come out... Ignorance is bliss. Who in the heck said that??? Maybe its blissful for the ignorant one.. they dont even realize whats going on! However, its not blissful for the people around the ignorant one! The people who have to deal with the statements... now thats patience is a virtue... Those people deserve a standing ovation. *clap clap clap* If you are laughing, actually think about this for a second. The person who made the ignorance is bliss comment was obviously too ignorant to realize what that entailed. Thanks for trying to contribute to society though dude! Let me try! ....dang it! I gotta give that guy more props... its hard to think of something that doesnt make sense off the top of my head!
For fifth, I was able to hang out with some pretty amazing people. I went on two different shopping expeditions with a friend. A friend who is truly unique and beautiful. I love her so so much. (And shes making me a dress! Totally random, but I am way way more than excited!) I got to go "do homework" and have coffee with my roommate. I got a fabulous cup of coffee and had a wonderful conversation. I love my roommate. And I love that we understand each other.... And gotta love those awkward situations with random people where the whole "understanding each other" really comes out.... Hopefully, the girl who a random guy was yelling about on the phone isnt really possessed. Nevertheless, all of Coffee Depot knows there is a girl in trouble who needs 1. prayer 2. a Bible and 3. authorities to get involved. Thank you stranger, for informing us about your and others personal lives. I got the opportunity to reconnect with several different friends - which I always love doing.
For sixth, I got to sleep in today! Well, till 930. Darn daylight. Totally makes me want to have a house like the one in The Holiday, where the huge sun-blockers come down to make the room pitch black. Those are an amazing invention. I feel like I would sleep so much better and be happier in the morning when I have to wake up! I could decide to leave the sun out for a bit longer, or invite it in to help me prepare for my day. Ah fabulous. Then I got to relax for a while! Given I should have been doing homework, but I felt like I could take part of a day off.
Well. I believe that is all. I had a good week. And to you, it may seem rather uneventful and mundane, but to me, I need to be thankful for the little things. Those are what get me through the day. Each of the things listed above may have had a bummer incidence in it, but ended up ok. Or funny. Whatever. I could deal with the ending, basically. Well. It is time for bed. Bible study and bed. Haha! Its B&B time! Can I just point out, how fabulous is a bed? Who created these things? (Im not even a history buff, and yet I just want to know several origins for this note!) Anyways. Until next month! Or whenever I decide to write again!...
Friday, January 1, 2010
New Year Understandings
Today is a day that begins a new year. Yes. It is 2010. It is exciting, it is a "fresh start," it is a chance to kiss that special someone when the clock strikes midnight. Yay! Or is it really a yay? The past several months have been very difficult for me. I have faced hardships all my life. The past few months have been no different. I have had difficult classes. Faced conflicts with friends. Been the mediator, encourager, protector, and so much more. At least, I have tried to succeed at being those things. Im grateful I am looked at as a person who can fix things and will comfort people. But in all honesty, it has been hard. Im not about to lie. So yay. Its a new year. Its a fresh start. A new beginning. But wait. Does that mean everything is forgotten? Does that mean people change? Situations change? Are we given a blank slate and a coupon book of second chances?
So many people set "New Years Resolutions." How long do they last? I feel the longest is to the end of January. Honestly, more power to you. You want to change something you find to be a problem - you do it. Key words: DO IT. Ill be honest, Ive set a goal for a year. But Ill also be the first to admit I forgot about it on January 2nd. I know I am not perfect, Im not judging others, placing myself above them. But my frustrations lie with the change that people desire to see, but refuse to do the work to get it. False acclamations. Another reason I dont really like new years is because of the pressure it places on people. "Kiss your sweetheart!" Well, what percentage of the population is single? What does that push them to do? Kiss a stranger! Or, it leaves them with a pint of ice cream, sitting in front of Ryan Seacrest hosting the Dick Clark New Years Celebration, all alone, wishing they had someone to celebrate with. Do you see my point? It reinforces what you dont have. My joke is always that Im going to find someone to kiss on New Years. Guess what? I have yet to cave into that pressure. Even though my best friend told me to pucker up last night at the stroke of midnight. (She was kidding, by the way.) My last intense frustration with this so-called holiday is that is gives people a chance to be dangerous and irresponsible. Drinking is thee way to celebrate new years. How many drunk driving accidents occur that night? Not the greatest beginning to a new year, huh?
Even though I just probably made you think this was going to be a big dud of a note, there is hope. The light at the end of the tunnel is rapidly approaching. Do not fret.
My hard work in my difficult classes has paid off. I got through the semester with ALL As! I have never done that, but have always worked for it. I am simply ecstatic. I made new friends who have provided the type of friendship I need. Lots of fun/funny moments. Opportunities to connect on levels I thought I was alone on. The list goes on and on. The hardships have brought good things along. God will never give you more than you can handle right? "I can do all things through Christ, Who strengthens me." And believe me, the hardships will continue. I can already see it with the courses Im signed up for. Lately I have been feeling like things will never lighten up, though. I have been frustrated with Gods timing, maybe because I feel like it is frozen. I want to take the reigns on my life.
Last night, I did celebrate the new year. Yes, I did. But I went to church and participated in a gospel celebration with 6 or 7 different churches. Apparently black churches hold this celebration each year, starting around 1230 or 1, to bring in the new year. This year, my church hosted it. I was so excited, but I truly had no idea what I was in for.
I felt as if I celebrated the best way imagined. I was moved. I was excited. I was revived. I had an epiphany that my frustration with things in my life not moving forward has been causing things to stop. I have frustrations. I have irritations. They have not disappeared. But I realize that ultimately, I have been frustrated with my Father because He is not allowing things to occur that I want. I found peace last night. Honesty, black people are some of the most incredible and devoted people I have ever met. They are thriving off of their desire to serve the Lord. I want so bad to be like that. I want my only desire to be to serve the Lord. I feel like I have been developing massive amounts of patience through various experiences in college. But this was a whole new level of acceptance and patience. Acceptance that I do not know what is best for me at all times. Acceptance that I do not control my life. Patience on God. Patience that His time is perfect and He will allow things to happen when He has prepared me for them and the time is right. As all these people were rejoicing, throwing their hands up in the air, dancing in the aisles, calling out to Jesus, I was pulled in. I was moved. I was spoken to. It was so fun, and so so incredible.
I know this was a very personal note, (shocking, I know) I didnt even mean to write it this way. And I know its long - sorry about that. But it all came out. I know that these realizations are not going to change difficult obstacles that come my way. But hopefully they will change how I respond to them so that I wont, like, lose it or something. I need strength. I need patience. This semester is going to be difficult. Very difficult. But hopefully I will remain strong in the Lord. I want to dedicate my life to loving and serving the Lord. So maybe the new year isnt bringing goals and blank slates, but new understandings and fresh perspectives.
Im still going to be honest (what has ever stopped me?) Im definitely not excited for this semester. Im not excited to go back to school. Im not excited to continue dealing with the conflicts that have only been put on hold over the break. Im not excited to have things shoved in my face that will remind me of what I dont have and make me try to hurry Gods timing along. But I need to trust that He is right and knows what Hes doing. Because He is and He does. So Im excited to see what He is going to have me do. I am excited to see the lessons and blessings He is going to give me. Im excited... for being Gods child, loving Him with all my heart, and waiting patiently on what He is going to do next in my life.
So many people set "New Years Resolutions." How long do they last? I feel the longest is to the end of January. Honestly, more power to you. You want to change something you find to be a problem - you do it. Key words: DO IT. Ill be honest, Ive set a goal for a year. But Ill also be the first to admit I forgot about it on January 2nd. I know I am not perfect, Im not judging others, placing myself above them. But my frustrations lie with the change that people desire to see, but refuse to do the work to get it. False acclamations. Another reason I dont really like new years is because of the pressure it places on people. "Kiss your sweetheart!" Well, what percentage of the population is single? What does that push them to do? Kiss a stranger! Or, it leaves them with a pint of ice cream, sitting in front of Ryan Seacrest hosting the Dick Clark New Years Celebration, all alone, wishing they had someone to celebrate with. Do you see my point? It reinforces what you dont have. My joke is always that Im going to find someone to kiss on New Years. Guess what? I have yet to cave into that pressure. Even though my best friend told me to pucker up last night at the stroke of midnight. (She was kidding, by the way.) My last intense frustration with this so-called holiday is that is gives people a chance to be dangerous and irresponsible. Drinking is thee way to celebrate new years. How many drunk driving accidents occur that night? Not the greatest beginning to a new year, huh?
Even though I just probably made you think this was going to be a big dud of a note, there is hope. The light at the end of the tunnel is rapidly approaching. Do not fret.
My hard work in my difficult classes has paid off. I got through the semester with ALL As! I have never done that, but have always worked for it. I am simply ecstatic. I made new friends who have provided the type of friendship I need. Lots of fun/funny moments. Opportunities to connect on levels I thought I was alone on. The list goes on and on. The hardships have brought good things along. God will never give you more than you can handle right? "I can do all things through Christ, Who strengthens me." And believe me, the hardships will continue. I can already see it with the courses Im signed up for. Lately I have been feeling like things will never lighten up, though. I have been frustrated with Gods timing, maybe because I feel like it is frozen. I want to take the reigns on my life.
Last night, I did celebrate the new year. Yes, I did. But I went to church and participated in a gospel celebration with 6 or 7 different churches. Apparently black churches hold this celebration each year, starting around 1230 or 1, to bring in the new year. This year, my church hosted it. I was so excited, but I truly had no idea what I was in for.
I felt as if I celebrated the best way imagined. I was moved. I was excited. I was revived. I had an epiphany that my frustration with things in my life not moving forward has been causing things to stop. I have frustrations. I have irritations. They have not disappeared. But I realize that ultimately, I have been frustrated with my Father because He is not allowing things to occur that I want. I found peace last night. Honesty, black people are some of the most incredible and devoted people I have ever met. They are thriving off of their desire to serve the Lord. I want so bad to be like that. I want my only desire to be to serve the Lord. I feel like I have been developing massive amounts of patience through various experiences in college. But this was a whole new level of acceptance and patience. Acceptance that I do not know what is best for me at all times. Acceptance that I do not control my life. Patience on God. Patience that His time is perfect and He will allow things to happen when He has prepared me for them and the time is right. As all these people were rejoicing, throwing their hands up in the air, dancing in the aisles, calling out to Jesus, I was pulled in. I was moved. I was spoken to. It was so fun, and so so incredible.
I know this was a very personal note, (shocking, I know) I didnt even mean to write it this way. And I know its long - sorry about that. But it all came out. I know that these realizations are not going to change difficult obstacles that come my way. But hopefully they will change how I respond to them so that I wont, like, lose it or something. I need strength. I need patience. This semester is going to be difficult. Very difficult. But hopefully I will remain strong in the Lord. I want to dedicate my life to loving and serving the Lord. So maybe the new year isnt bringing goals and blank slates, but new understandings and fresh perspectives.
Im still going to be honest (what has ever stopped me?) Im definitely not excited for this semester. Im not excited to go back to school. Im not excited to continue dealing with the conflicts that have only been put on hold over the break. Im not excited to have things shoved in my face that will remind me of what I dont have and make me try to hurry Gods timing along. But I need to trust that He is right and knows what Hes doing. Because He is and He does. So Im excited to see what He is going to have me do. I am excited to see the lessons and blessings He is going to give me. Im excited... for being Gods child, loving Him with all my heart, and waiting patiently on what He is going to do next in my life.
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Nearing the End... of Another Year
Well seeing as I have no blogged in close to 2 months, I figure my lovely sister is waiting for something to read... Im not figuring, Im being told. Finals are nearing. Some have come and gone. I have four to study for next week. Pretty much back to back. Oh, how I hate school. BUT. Finals mean another semester down. School ending for a bit - even if its short, it is time to be away from school.
I hate finals time. Its crunch time. But one thing I love about it is that we are all in the same boat. We are all stressed. We are all getting frustrated. We are all sleep deprived. We are all SICK of school. Were all in this together. Its awesome. I am included in this bunch. I have been apologizing to people in advanced, because I know I am not a pleasurable person to be around this time of year. In the end though, we all get it and we all roll with the punches we throw at each other.
I have been having to remind myself every day, that I will be home in a week from tomorrow. I will see my mom, my sister, my family, my animals, my friends, my lovely warm home. I will get to relax, not have to worry about school nor any of the stresses that are with it. I cant wait to go home. Besides the fact that it is break time - it is also CHRISTMAS time!!!! Meaning my house will be decorated with adorable Christmas things. The tree - my favorite aspect of Christmas decor - will be up and ready to house presents. So though this is not the funnest time of school, what comes after is important. It is the funnest part. I am continually thinking home, Christmas. Im so ready for it all.
I hate finals time. Its crunch time. But one thing I love about it is that we are all in the same boat. We are all stressed. We are all getting frustrated. We are all sleep deprived. We are all SICK of school. Were all in this together. Its awesome. I am included in this bunch. I have been apologizing to people in advanced, because I know I am not a pleasurable person to be around this time of year. In the end though, we all get it and we all roll with the punches we throw at each other.
I have been having to remind myself every day, that I will be home in a week from tomorrow. I will see my mom, my sister, my family, my animals, my friends, my lovely warm home. I will get to relax, not have to worry about school nor any of the stresses that are with it. I cant wait to go home. Besides the fact that it is break time - it is also CHRISTMAS time!!!! Meaning my house will be decorated with adorable Christmas things. The tree - my favorite aspect of Christmas decor - will be up and ready to house presents. So though this is not the funnest time of school, what comes after is important. It is the funnest part. I am continually thinking home, Christmas. Im so ready for it all.
Friday, October 16, 2009
Make a Wish
This blog has been a long time coming. Time and homework has not permitted me to write this. I must apologize to you, Jordanna, my one follower, for the blog delay.
Several weeks ago, my roommate/best friend took a trip home to San Diego with me. I was so excited. My family and my best friend. Life gets no better than that. The purpose was to go to a Padres/Giant game, Padres are obviously my team... Giants are shamefully hers. One thing you should know about Steve, he loves baseball, loves football, but were talking about baseball here. Upon discovering how MUCH of a fan Monica is, Steve wanted to do something special. He has a heart for achieving dreams, and even worked for Make a Wish Foundation at one point in his life. If you meet Steve, youll understand how perfect that job is for him. Well, Steve, through his desire to makes dreams come true and gracious connections was able to get us on the field to watch the Giants batting practice. Quite the experience. Im definitely in favor of going for Padres.... and one day.... Chargers! Anyways, it was great. We arrived and got the VIP service from the moment we stepped out of our car. We got a ride to the stadium on a golf cart, were met by an official Padres employee (official job title - not known) with our field passes, escorted in the VIP entrance, taken through the "Dugout", finally onto the field. Thank you Justin. Im not even a Giants fan and yet, I had a blast and was super excited. Monica got her hat and ticket signed by her favorite player, Lincicum. Who, honestly is pretty nice. I had to scream at him, jumping and flailing my arms to get his attention. However, wouldnt it be that our pen wouldnt work. So, he tried signing for quite a while, poor guy. He was definitely persistent. Finally, I said "We had this planned so we could spend more time with you." He looked up at me and laughed. I was excited. We had made a connection, even if I was wearing my Padres jersey. I mean, dont get me wrong, Monica and him totally hit it off pretty well too, dont get me wrong. It was awesome. Then, we had great seats and watched a great game with the PADRES winning.... thank you very much Padres. It was truly such a fun night. I loved it and had so much fun!
Then, last Friday, Monica, Sam, and I went out to dinner and a movie. Sam, actually was treating us to dinner due to us going to bed before midnight one night. What a friend, or rather, brother, he is. So, Monica and decided to make the night special and got all cutesy. When Monica opened the door to find Sam standing there in jeans, t-shirt, and hat, he turned around and changed. Somehow, I figured this would happen. But nonetheless. We headed to our Pei Wei dinner and then to our movie. Our Toy Story 1 and 2 in 3D movie. To be honest, we had so much fun. I caught things that were said that I had never thought twice about when I was younger. Funny how that happens. It reminded me most of when I saw Greece. That movie is great, but it has some very inappropriate parts. Anyways. I am so thankful for my friends.
The fact that they are 20 and Im 19 is my favorite part. Despite our age, we were all incredibly interested in seeing Toy Story. I love that. But also, and more importantly. They accept me. I am younger than them, yet they treat me like an equal. They value my opinion and my feelings. I have never been as open with friends as I am with Monica and Sam. I am so blessed by them. I never need to be something Im not - which, if you know me, is not something I really do. But they accept me the way I am and choose to love me no matter what I do or say. They value me. Ive been valued and loved, but truly, this is a whole new experience for me. It is so rewarding and exciting. I love both of them with all my heart. Monica is like my sister. And I am like her mother. Well really, were like family. Ive never had a friend like Mon. She is there for me in a way I have never had a friend support me. God knew exactly what He was doing when He placed her in my life. Every day I thank God for her. Sam too. Sam is truly a unique individual who has come into my life for a reason. He is an amazing guy who I feel privileged to call my friend. Both are incredible people. This year, God has shown me He is in control and will do for me what I need. My friends are the perfect examples of that.
Several weeks ago, my roommate/best friend took a trip home to San Diego with me. I was so excited. My family and my best friend. Life gets no better than that. The purpose was to go to a Padres/Giant game, Padres are obviously my team... Giants are shamefully hers. One thing you should know about Steve, he loves baseball, loves football, but were talking about baseball here. Upon discovering how MUCH of a fan Monica is, Steve wanted to do something special. He has a heart for achieving dreams, and even worked for Make a Wish Foundation at one point in his life. If you meet Steve, youll understand how perfect that job is for him. Well, Steve, through his desire to makes dreams come true and gracious connections was able to get us on the field to watch the Giants batting practice. Quite the experience. Im definitely in favor of going for Padres.... and one day.... Chargers! Anyways, it was great. We arrived and got the VIP service from the moment we stepped out of our car. We got a ride to the stadium on a golf cart, were met by an official Padres employee (official job title - not known) with our field passes, escorted in the VIP entrance, taken through the "Dugout", finally onto the field. Thank you Justin. Im not even a Giants fan and yet, I had a blast and was super excited. Monica got her hat and ticket signed by her favorite player, Lincicum. Who, honestly is pretty nice. I had to scream at him, jumping and flailing my arms to get his attention. However, wouldnt it be that our pen wouldnt work. So, he tried signing for quite a while, poor guy. He was definitely persistent. Finally, I said "We had this planned so we could spend more time with you." He looked up at me and laughed. I was excited. We had made a connection, even if I was wearing my Padres jersey. I mean, dont get me wrong, Monica and him totally hit it off pretty well too, dont get me wrong. It was awesome. Then, we had great seats and watched a great game with the PADRES winning.... thank you very much Padres. It was truly such a fun night. I loved it and had so much fun!
Then, last Friday, Monica, Sam, and I went out to dinner and a movie. Sam, actually was treating us to dinner due to us going to bed before midnight one night. What a friend, or rather, brother, he is. So, Monica and decided to make the night special and got all cutesy. When Monica opened the door to find Sam standing there in jeans, t-shirt, and hat, he turned around and changed. Somehow, I figured this would happen. But nonetheless. We headed to our Pei Wei dinner and then to our movie. Our Toy Story 1 and 2 in 3D movie. To be honest, we had so much fun. I caught things that were said that I had never thought twice about when I was younger. Funny how that happens. It reminded me most of when I saw Greece. That movie is great, but it has some very inappropriate parts. Anyways. I am so thankful for my friends.
The fact that they are 20 and Im 19 is my favorite part. Despite our age, we were all incredibly interested in seeing Toy Story. I love that. But also, and more importantly. They accept me. I am younger than them, yet they treat me like an equal. They value my opinion and my feelings. I have never been as open with friends as I am with Monica and Sam. I am so blessed by them. I never need to be something Im not - which, if you know me, is not something I really do. But they accept me the way I am and choose to love me no matter what I do or say. They value me. Ive been valued and loved, but truly, this is a whole new experience for me. It is so rewarding and exciting. I love both of them with all my heart. Monica is like my sister. And I am like her mother. Well really, were like family. Ive never had a friend like Mon. She is there for me in a way I have never had a friend support me. God knew exactly what He was doing when He placed her in my life. Every day I thank God for her. Sam too. Sam is truly a unique individual who has come into my life for a reason. He is an amazing guy who I feel privileged to call my friend. Both are incredible people. This year, God has shown me He is in control and will do for me what I need. My friends are the perfect examples of that.
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